Thursday, July 31, 2008
pehle pehle pyaar
PART I
HERE starts the adolescence…Life seemed more beautiful than ever. Every plant, every tree, every breeze seemed to make its presence. And I took notice of every small entity, that, otherwise seemed to have no existence at all.. Suddenly everything was important.
My friends seemed to be of primal importance and somehow I felt, they knew everything and no one could understand what I was saying, except my buddies. Parents and elders seemed to be from an alien land. They were so primitive (I still feel the same).
Sometimes I found myself comfortable in the company of elders, and sometimes I was comfortable with juniors. It was some kind of role diffusion. What I realized is: people who admire you and understand you seem to be your friend and thus u feel comfortable with them. The same people when try to pin point at your shortcomings, they seem to be your greatest enemy.
Similarly- my mom! A wonderful lady ,but I could never understand why , she- derived all the pleasure of the world, while discussing with the neighborhood aunties about how late I sleep and how late I get up or about how unhealthy my eating habits are….and of course.., how I never help her in household work.
I discovered a lot of things. one and the most important being- that if one day…read twice….”one day” I get up at 10 am, it is taken for granted that it is always mentioned while they are gossiping about me or when I get scolded for anything in the world. They generalize that”one”day to everyday so conveniently.
Second observation: the time or the duration when I watch TV or surf is stretched more than double, than actual, while giving taanas or scolding. And the time spent in studying is strangely diminished by2 hrs straight!
For eg. If I watch 2 serials, that’s 1 hr. they will say “the whole evening you watch TV “
And the time I study say from 5 to 8 pm is shortened saying, “You just studied for an hour, rest of the time u just read or went to the toilet.”
THIS IS SO NOT TRUE!!!
Third observation: studying is not equal to reading….I cant figure out- when we read the text gain and again. What the hell do we do??
After reading this, you might be wondering how miserable life must have been. YES..ur right. So we do need a break. At least as a teenager. I did!
And then came my 16th birthday- sweet 16...and it was indeed the sweetest birthday. - My most memorable birthday 6th April 2002
Chapter (love 1)
Thin, linky ..Pinky….crack voice….and of course a winning smile was something I got attracted to for the 1st (ahem….I don’t really believe d serial no. but I believe it was the first time I thought beyond a crush.) time
We had been friends for long, more than a year and were closer to each other, than anybody else. The time was such that I believed..I needed to think about someone- like my other friends….but all I could think of ALL THE TIME.. Was none other than hrithik roshan.
I managed to learn all the songs “by heart”. And I would sing in the bathroom, kitchen and even in the loo.
I was practically mesmerized with the hero and he was my favorite. But this thin looking guy, who was a genius, who would sit in front of me during exams and show me his entire paper and pass question papers with answers written on it… tell me everything that seemed alien to me... Teach a dumbo like me. Forget his math, while mentoring me….and also feel sad if I told him would flunk…
This under nourished guy had no similarity to hrithik. But I wonder how I started to think about him now....more than I ever thought about the hero of whom i still am a great fan.
Days changed to months. Months to days.. oopsss…. I mean weeks in to months and more months. Actually I don’t remember when I started to formally think about him. Date time.. Sorry no clue!
BUT… it was long.. And I knew he was special
Both of us would talk for hours together. I felt special in his company.
My eyes would search for him every time I entered school… 8 hours of school and 2 hrs tuition. life was so beautiful. My life was no less than what they show in the TV. that show” dill mil Gaye”…how the lead characters bump into each other.. Keep staring and the background music plays…. All the time.
Trust me. it was the same for me. I could also feel the same from the other end..
We would miss each other….talk .yet miss each other. then letters seemed to start. We went back to the age of 70s and 80s. When technology was not developed. We too used to write letters to each other.
It was a different and beautiful feeling of being in love. Later letters changed to chits and each day we discovered new ways of communication.
He would walk down to my place in the hot summer.. Just to see me. Wow!! How romantic and filmy!
It was true and real. For a whole year, we were the cutest couple in school and everyone knew about us. We were famous.
Classrooms, even toilets were not spared and it was posted everywhere. We didn’t mind.. We loved being like that!
CUT! CUT! CUT!
What happened? Everything was so smooth then why cut!. What’s wrong?
Every good thing has a short life. And it ends suddenly!.. His mom was allergic to me, so problems began. The love withered and we realized it was just a long lasting crush!
We were both kids and did not know how to deal with the situation, so we parted.. Came back, again parted. Again came back and finally parted!
I changed school.. New school.. new uniform, new syllabus ….life changed overnight. old friends said bye bye, never turned back this one incident made me realize a lot many things….
1. I was such a kid
2. No one is your friend for life
3. You need to move on
4. Just be yourself
……………………………………………….X…………………………………………………………..
HERE starts the adolescence…Life seemed more beautiful than ever. Every plant, every tree, every breeze seemed to make its presence. And I took notice of every small entity, that, otherwise seemed to have no existence at all.. Suddenly everything was important.
My friends seemed to be of primal importance and somehow I felt, they knew everything and no one could understand what I was saying, except my buddies. Parents and elders seemed to be from an alien land. They were so primitive (I still feel the same).
Sometimes I found myself comfortable in the company of elders, and sometimes I was comfortable with juniors. It was some kind of role diffusion. What I realized is: people who admire you and understand you seem to be your friend and thus u feel comfortable with them. The same people when try to pin point at your shortcomings, they seem to be your greatest enemy.
Similarly- my mom! A wonderful lady ,but I could never understand why , she- derived all the pleasure of the world, while discussing with the neighborhood aunties about how late I sleep and how late I get up or about how unhealthy my eating habits are….and of course.., how I never help her in household work.
I discovered a lot of things. one and the most important being- that if one day…read twice….”one day” I get up at 10 am, it is taken for granted that it is always mentioned while they are gossiping about me or when I get scolded for anything in the world. They generalize that”one”day to everyday so conveniently.
Second observation: the time or the duration when I watch TV or surf is stretched more than double, than actual, while giving taanas or scolding. And the time spent in studying is strangely diminished by2 hrs straight!
For eg. If I watch 2 serials, that’s 1 hr. they will say “the whole evening you watch TV “
And the time I study say from 5 to 8 pm is shortened saying, “You just studied for an hour, rest of the time u just read or went to the toilet.”
THIS IS SO NOT TRUE!!!
Third observation: studying is not equal to reading….I cant figure out- when we read the text gain and again. What the hell do we do??
After reading this, you might be wondering how miserable life must have been. YES..ur right. So we do need a break. At least as a teenager. I did!
And then came my 16th birthday- sweet 16...and it was indeed the sweetest birthday. - My most memorable birthday 6th April 2002
Chapter (love 1)
Thin, linky ..Pinky….crack voice….and of course a winning smile was something I got attracted to for the 1st (ahem….I don’t really believe d serial no. but I believe it was the first time I thought beyond a crush.) time
We had been friends for long, more than a year and were closer to each other, than anybody else. The time was such that I believed..I needed to think about someone- like my other friends….but all I could think of ALL THE TIME.. Was none other than hrithik roshan.
I managed to learn all the songs “by heart”. And I would sing in the bathroom, kitchen and even in the loo.
I was practically mesmerized with the hero and he was my favorite. But this thin looking guy, who was a genius, who would sit in front of me during exams and show me his entire paper and pass question papers with answers written on it… tell me everything that seemed alien to me... Teach a dumbo like me. Forget his math, while mentoring me….and also feel sad if I told him would flunk…
This under nourished guy had no similarity to hrithik. But I wonder how I started to think about him now....more than I ever thought about the hero of whom i still am a great fan.
Days changed to months. Months to days.. oopsss…. I mean weeks in to months and more months. Actually I don’t remember when I started to formally think about him. Date time.. Sorry no clue!
BUT… it was long.. And I knew he was special
Both of us would talk for hours together. I felt special in his company.
My eyes would search for him every time I entered school… 8 hours of school and 2 hrs tuition. life was so beautiful. My life was no less than what they show in the TV. that show” dill mil Gaye”…how the lead characters bump into each other.. Keep staring and the background music plays…. All the time.
Trust me. it was the same for me. I could also feel the same from the other end..
We would miss each other….talk .yet miss each other. then letters seemed to start. We went back to the age of 70s and 80s. When technology was not developed. We too used to write letters to each other.
It was a different and beautiful feeling of being in love. Later letters changed to chits and each day we discovered new ways of communication.
He would walk down to my place in the hot summer.. Just to see me. Wow!! How romantic and filmy!
It was true and real. For a whole year, we were the cutest couple in school and everyone knew about us. We were famous.
Classrooms, even toilets were not spared and it was posted everywhere. We didn’t mind.. We loved being like that!
CUT! CUT! CUT!
What happened? Everything was so smooth then why cut!. What’s wrong?
Every good thing has a short life. And it ends suddenly!.. His mom was allergic to me, so problems began. The love withered and we realized it was just a long lasting crush!
We were both kids and did not know how to deal with the situation, so we parted.. Came back, again parted. Again came back and finally parted!
I changed school.. New school.. new uniform, new syllabus ….life changed overnight. old friends said bye bye, never turned back this one incident made me realize a lot many things….
1. I was such a kid
2. No one is your friend for life
3. You need to move on
4. Just be yourself
……………………………………………….X…………………………………………………………..
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